.:strangers once, now & forever:.

Ok. This post is going to be one of the hardest to type.
I don’t even know how to start.
Same story, different perception- it wasn’t a start…

And this was how it ended:

I love you.
I love you too.

I guess the ending wasn’t that bad~
Not what I had expected but I can’t change it.
As much I can remember, these few days have been the longest ones in my life.
Pretty rough too. i don't think i cried so much in so little time.

It’s an end.
I call it an end.
I don’t regret giving you my heart or loving you.
I regret not letting you know how much I love you.
I don’t exactly know what happened.
And all I have now are just assumptions.
Without a reply, they mean nothing.

~Hmmm…have been typing this since yesterday night and been procrastinating all day.
I guess it's time I finished it. C=

Healing and...
Thinking about it once in a while...
I guess its better this way...
Having not knowing all of you
Or getting too involved...
IT was bound to happen one day or rather...
Maybe earlier is better
Now is good...
We have the good memories~
And if this was what u had in mind,
Thanks.

Yesterday i planned and thought it over.
Today my mind’s made up.
It IS the end.
I guess that's why they call it friday the 13th.
[it didn't matter before, i guess it will now]

~and i promise myself not to cry about this anymore~

p/s:I will probably always love you.

when suddenly everything took one step behind on this one saturday

u noe the times when u fight and work so hard for something but when u finally get it; it suddenly didn't matter anymore coz ur too worn out from the battle to even care?

i guess this is one of those days.

Been feeling like crap today-maybe i got off on the wrong side of the bed...wat the heck, just really down today for i dunno what reason..

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Watched Transformers yesterday with Mellie...

Was not supposed to watch this movie at all...

but there were no other movies to watch so...

too bad~~

i was so wrong when i said it sux

coz it doesn't-in fact,

IT ROX~!

~super funny! + chunted effects!!

LUV Bumblebee!!! & the yellow car roxxx::~

-wish i could have one XP-

after movie was dinner, more shopping and then...

over to mel's house for another movie & sleepover..

had to teman her practice her driving first..not bad X)

watched 200 pounds beauty....

i dun get why so many ppl say it's super FUNNY & NICE...-___-

~it's seriously not that great...

::been sleeping alot today::

-really don't feel like doing anything at all

but my research is due soon~

and i hardly have any info...so gotta get working!!

-its bout peranakan...msian studies -____-

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its the end of june and we/I welcome July with a BIG HEART!

-one of the most eventful months for me..especially this year...=) -

~4 days down to zero

~♡Sss~

about a boy.....

i just can't let go....i know why but i can't change it......
maybe u can but u don't even have a clue about it....
i need to move on and that's the hard part coz ur always around....

- at times, i'd rather u rip my heart out......

.....coz i guess that's when i can actually move on-

Game over!!~~time to move on....

i was mistaken, i jumped to conclusions and now i'm back to square one.

i can't really do much to fix the problem or make things better therefore,

I GIVE UP...

It's about time anyways. it's been too long and waiting is just a really hard thing to do and isn't the happiest thing to be doing.

I have wasted too much time thinking, being moody and solemn over the things that i hope would happen but in the end, it jus dissapoints me further.

Therefore..........

NOW, I OFFICIALLY CALL OFF THE GAME ::

-it doesn't exactly spell FUN and i'm bound to lose anyways....
....so what's the point??-

**shit, tomorrow got progress test and i'm still here.......

......ciao!!

.......will you fall for me.....i need to know......

My head's full of thought

Thoughts of you

And I'm distracted so easy

Thinking what to do

So unsure, so unfamiliar

Am I wrong to think that something could happen

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Will you fall for me

I need to know,

the way I'd like you to

Baby, will you fall for me

The way I've fallen for you

*

I’m not like myself

And I'm playing the role of someone else

And my hearts beating so fast

I can't stop it

And I’m so unsure

So unfamiliar

Am I wrong to think that something could happen

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Will you fall for me

The way I'd like you to

Will you fall for me

The way I've fallen for you

The way I've fallen for you

:~: part of the lyrics of "Will you Fall for Me" by Delta Goodrem :~:

-kinda relates to my life at the moment- =)

L.O.V.E.-can't it be simpler?

It’s 1 a.m. in the morning and I’m still in my dilemma.....

I TOTALLY trashed everything on my bestie earlier and she tells me I’m going the wrong way.

At times, I think….is it that hard?? Well, yea…it is.

This is the story(sort of-minus the names n some stuff here and there) -->

Love is a really tough game to play-that's what I realized today.

My instincts are usually right and I’m still in denial that they failed me for once.

Just thinking about it makes me really frustrated coz in the end; I still do not have an answer.

And because of this, I really feel that maybe I AM wrong for the first time...maybe I’m jus

"OVER PERASAAN".

Ok...to me, he did make his move on that certain day...but then he kinda ignored me for the whole week after...so I’m like WHAT?? ...fine, never mind (and I was planning to give up)

Then I realized he would wait up for me after class...

so I was like –why not play the game for a while longer…no harm rite??

But then again, maybe I’m jus thinking too much... (Haih…so “fan” rite?)

Today(Tuesday), I guess he tried to make the move again…but if he actually did, it didn’t seem much…

and it’s even more depressing when he makes conversation coz he plays everything so safe…

so we end up talking about boring stuffs like class, homework and his work and the list goes on.

I mean with other people, he can go laugh his head off and talk crap…

:x: I want that to also happen when he’s with me…talking about “SAFE” stuffs makes everything so tensed up and BORING…..

Plus, there are pros and cons to what he does…so it kinda balances everything out…

*~*he would do things which I guess are parts of his moves and he would not do some of it…it’s like hanging in the middle of no where…that’s why I’m so unsure about what he feels coz it’s jus not enough to prove anything… and maybe, he's just a really frenly person and i'm taking it the wrong way......

**my bestie told me to go and message him or do sth about it…but I really don’t want to since I can’t confirm anything…I mean if I can actually confirm that he likes me…then why not??...

I would make the move…but now…if he doesn’t like me, then what’s the point anyways??....

and I would be meeting him for quite some time…**

So now denial time: I would just assume he is a really frenly and nice guy who probably likes this other girl who is NOT BAD and is just being friends with me....

-then I wouldn’t be so hurt whatever the end is-

:*: there, the first time I’m actually seriously ranting about something in this blog :*: