L.O.V.E.-can't it be simpler?

It’s 1 a.m. in the morning and I’m still in my dilemma.....

I TOTALLY trashed everything on my bestie earlier and she tells me I’m going the wrong way.

At times, I think….is it that hard?? Well, yea…it is.

This is the story(sort of-minus the names n some stuff here and there) -->

Love is a really tough game to play-that's what I realized today.

My instincts are usually right and I’m still in denial that they failed me for once.

Just thinking about it makes me really frustrated coz in the end; I still do not have an answer.

And because of this, I really feel that maybe I AM wrong for the first time...maybe I’m jus

"OVER PERASAAN".

Ok...to me, he did make his move on that certain day...but then he kinda ignored me for the whole week after...so I’m like WHAT?? ...fine, never mind (and I was planning to give up)

Then I realized he would wait up for me after class...

so I was like –why not play the game for a while longer…no harm rite??

But then again, maybe I’m jus thinking too much... (Haih…so “fan” rite?)

Today(Tuesday), I guess he tried to make the move again…but if he actually did, it didn’t seem much…

and it’s even more depressing when he makes conversation coz he plays everything so safe…

so we end up talking about boring stuffs like class, homework and his work and the list goes on.

I mean with other people, he can go laugh his head off and talk crap…

:x: I want that to also happen when he’s with me…talking about “SAFE” stuffs makes everything so tensed up and BORING…..

Plus, there are pros and cons to what he does…so it kinda balances everything out…

*~*he would do things which I guess are parts of his moves and he would not do some of it…it’s like hanging in the middle of no where…that’s why I’m so unsure about what he feels coz it’s jus not enough to prove anything… and maybe, he's just a really frenly person and i'm taking it the wrong way......

**my bestie told me to go and message him or do sth about it…but I really don’t want to since I can’t confirm anything…I mean if I can actually confirm that he likes me…then why not??...

I would make the move…but now…if he doesn’t like me, then what’s the point anyways??....

and I would be meeting him for quite some time…**

So now denial time: I would just assume he is a really frenly and nice guy who probably likes this other girl who is NOT BAD and is just being friends with me....

-then I wouldn’t be so hurt whatever the end is-

:*: there, the first time I’m actually seriously ranting about something in this blog :*: