it's been raining too long...i need a rainbow

im pissed...

super duper effin pissed..

tap me on the shoulder now and i'd probably scream at u...

tell me a joke n i'd probably tell ya 2 just shut the fcuk up..

yea...im THAT pissed

and moody too...

well, actually most probably i'd just cry...

either way; it isn't good..

Last week till today has been shitt..

This week will prob only be a teensy weeny bit better even though it was supposed to ROCK! since HE'S comin back...

Coz all the crap i had to go through last week was so much that it's overflowing to this week thus affecting the BIG EVENT; BIG TIME!

its ok if u dun understand what im sayin...

i don't know how to tell my story or who to tell it to.

i just want it to pass.

meanwhile, i guess all i need a trustable shoulder to lean on.

the one i had since forever hurt me too much.

"together; we'll wait it out, u & me. come back soon."

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~was talking to mellie earlier....
mellie:u should put all that bad energy somewhere else
chyi:omg..i should take up KICKBOXING~!
*hmm....not a bad idea...thinking about it...with all the hate i have, i might be really good at it"

i don't wana cry anymore.

too many tears have gone to waste.

i need to be ok.

i hate being in my situation now.

i guess it all depends on me.

i'm one from two that can fix this.

i can. i will.

have faith.

help me?