it's been raining too long...i need a rainbow

im pissed...

super duper effin pissed..

tap me on the shoulder now and i'd probably scream at u...

tell me a joke n i'd probably tell ya 2 just shut the fcuk up..

yea...im THAT pissed

and moody too...

well, actually most probably i'd just cry...

either way; it isn't good..

Last week till today has been shitt..

This week will prob only be a teensy weeny bit better even though it was supposed to ROCK! since HE'S comin back...

Coz all the crap i had to go through last week was so much that it's overflowing to this week thus affecting the BIG EVENT; BIG TIME!

its ok if u dun understand what im sayin...

i don't know how to tell my story or who to tell it to.

i just want it to pass.

meanwhile, i guess all i need a trustable shoulder to lean on.

the one i had since forever hurt me too much.

"together; we'll wait it out, u & me. come back soon."

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~was talking to mellie earlier....
mellie:u should put all that bad energy somewhere else
chyi:omg..i should take up KICKBOXING~!
*hmm....not a bad idea...thinking about it...with all the hate i have, i might be really good at it"

i don't wana cry anymore.

too many tears have gone to waste.

i need to be ok.

i hate being in my situation now.

i guess it all depends on me.

i'm one from two that can fix this.

i can. i will.

have faith.

help me?

fuckety FCUK~!!!!
i missed 10 mins of one tree hill!!!! 10 effin MINUTES~!!!
totally missed last week's episode coz was watchin POC 3...

n now im home n i still miss part of it...
u wud say it's jus 10 mins and im makin a big deal out of it

but im ONE TREE HILL crazy...so it IS a BIG DEAL~!!!
*plus since dinner, i was thinkin wat show was on at 10.30

but nutin came to my mind.. now i noe.... =.='''''

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Jus before the show, was reading an email sent fr my aunt fr aus sayin hi and about some stuff relating to some relatives here.

She din talk bad bout them but jus kinda 'bocor'ed sth they did recently.

And at that second when i read it, i was steaming!!!

Here's the story:

I have some shit relatives and hell, im not ashamed of sayin it.

I mean we all make mistakes and learn from it..and DUH; we DON'T do it again..
But wat is wrong with these people....they never LEARN!!!
And its not jus one or two of them..its like the whole effin family....ishh...
I mean, with relatives like these who needs enemies?
Plus, i dun think i've met anyONE who is that HORRIBLE...
Well, actually i have....but these people are FAMILY
And FAMILY MATTERS~!!!

*WE help u guys coz ur FAMILY but U dun noe SHIT how to appreciate it and it's SICKENING to see how u guys continue to use people like that...and even more DISGUSTING how u still can live with urself from day to day....

-x-call me mean, but if u went thru wat i went thru;
this is NOTHING-x-

break's over, college starts again....

college starts again today at like 3.30pm...

dad's late to pick me up~screw

the 8 day break is over just like that..

kinda =( that it's over but...

hey,i guess goin back to college beats doin nutin at home, rite?

kz...gtg...

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-ciao!-