what do you do when all the doors are closing down on you?

I’m on the verge of crying.

I learnt many things the hard way. Way too many things in fact. But I guess we all do. I realize we can never be too nice to people. They either look through it or take advantage of you. And either ain’t pretty. And in this cruel world, people aren’t the same as they used to be anymore. Everyone wants something for themselves. Can’t blame them though. It IS the survival of the fittest.

This is one fact I know by hard. Yet; to let it sink in seems harder than ever. I guess denial always lingers.

I let you have it. And you didn’t appreciate it. Well at least I feel so coz if you are appreciating it, it isn’t showing. I can’t tell you the hard, cold fact. I don’t know how to. That’s why I’m putting it here. It isn’t the same anymore. I can’t be the same to you anymore….What the heck. I can’t even explain it in words. Well, at least; I’ll know it.

So many things are going on. Some stuffs are known but many are kept. Put away where no one can or will find it. Not the best thing to do but there are reasons and reasons only the my heart will know.