talk to me, walk with me. like lovers do.

At the gym now waiting for Mr.Dad to come. Skipped class today to come to the gym with the cuzzie.

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I just got home from getting McDs. Damn geram! That stupid lady took her own bloody sweet time to serve the customers. Monica-I still remember her name coz I was cursing the whole time. Her co worker served 4 customers and she was still at the first one. -___- Seriously, wtf???? I so wanted to yell at her. She was working at her own bloody pace like as if she was dying or sth. I mean, it’s called fast food for a reason you know. Arghh….fucking annoying I tell you.

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Was blogging at the gym earlier. But! Half way through, the server was down. Annoyinggg…
So I resorted to studying tax for tomorrow’s test while the cuzzie went for the “BodyCombat” class. People there lift weights k. Kill me. But the cuzzie said that it was pretty ok. Easier than it looks..haha…=S

Was having lunch earlier with the boys at Medan talking about gays and what not. Damn funny…but I’ve got nothing against gays ok >.<

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Ok. Another random update. I’m doing the easy ones first. =)

29.1.08~Tues

Had class till 6pm. Dad couldn’t get me coz he had sth going on till really late so went back with Rach to OU. Shopped around. Got dinner at Secret Recipe. Chit chat. Then to watch “Cloverfield” at 9pm at TGV(the old one-_-) coz GSC didn’t have the times.

TGV kinda sucks already. Plus, we actually wanted to sneak into the cinema showing aliens vs. predator but didn't lar, then half way through; people started leaving(wonder why…the movie didn’t suck tat much riteee???) And, people were saying that Cloverfield was the movie of the year. Konon-nya…-___-

Anyways, soon everyone left except for me & Rach & this Indian guy who sat behind us. And paranoia Rach got me scared shit. Well, you gotta admit it is pretty dangerous being in the cinema alone with some random guy. So we went to sit behind near the door so we can run if anything happens. Smart eh?? XD and thru the other half of the show, whenever the guy moved, we would be on full alert to run at anytime…haha….this was even scarier than the movie k. Thank god nothing happened in the end.

Overall, the movie wasn’t even that good to begin with. Kinda suckkyy. Don’t watch it.
Oh if you guys didn’t know, at the end of the movie; after the credits, there’s a msg played backward saying, “It’s still alive”. Haha..Rach checked it online coz we didn’t understand it that night.

Then, to Rach’s hse to wait for dad who only came at like 12 plus. Played with the puppies…they are oh so adorable!! And played with her Nintendo..so cool! I want one too!! Love the Super Mario game…hehe.. =D

Late night really. Got home, shower then talk to the long M.I.A bestie till 3am.

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Oooh...YuHee, the Witch is on! Laterzzzz~

Peekaboo!

A cup of Milo & a bag of Famous Amos chocolate chips.

= YUMS!=
What a great way to start the day. =D
Watching Shrek 3 again courtesy of Rach.

Been watching ALOT of movies over the few days.

Update yall one day.

Anyways, I better finish the movie soon. Gotta go to college at 11.

Have a good Tuesday!

Sorry yall!

Getting lazy these days. And when I find the time to not be lazy, I will find that I’ve gotta go somewhere or do my assignments and homework or try my best to catch up on bits and pieces of my studying due to the lack of ME listening in class. And then get lazy again and not blog. That’s a pretty good reason right?

This semester isn’t starting right. I’m slacking banyak banyak. =/ And, I’m trying my very best to follow. =(

one, two,....jus!

Really behind on my posts. So i’m just gonna randomly post this up since it’s alreadly half done. =)

23.1.2008

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To the Orphanage Home!

It was a Moral assignment. So off we went to the Compassion Home for Children to have our lunch party and play games with the kids there! Dropped by Popular before that to get like RM 100 sth worth of stationary for the kids as prizes. And this was the extra money we had after getting the food and filling the angpows with RM 10 each. We’re damn rich right?? XD

What we did: Play games-lunch-chit chat-more games-listen to Jack sing -__- -games-leave at 3.

Anyways, I guess we all had fun there. Really tiring too having to prepare stuffs, clean and play with the kids. I tell you all of us were pretty worn out at the end.

I didn’t take any pics. And the pictures are just everywhere coz we had like 3 cameras there that day. Most of the pictures are with chin yip and i'm just too bloody lazy to get them. Anyways, found some of the pics in winston’s blog. :)

Theresa (the caretaker).

Hui Jeat~
Jack trying to build his fan base XD

Manpreet having more fun than ever~

Zen! Haha...the kid damnn scared d~

This is Jude. He can dance.

But he's got attitude k. Almost wanted to beat up this other kid.

Rachel. *ahem* Queen Victoria. ME!

The other little-er Rachel and Queen Victoria. They're best friends!

Aww..

My faves! And her name was really Queen. Cool rite?

Zai Xi & Jude

Group Pic! (only half the grp is here)

Gonna miss the kids!

One thing that hit me at the end of all this?
I've really gotta be thankful with my life! You people too!

Luves!
xoxo

what do you do when all the doors are closing down on you?

I’m on the verge of crying.

I learnt many things the hard way. Way too many things in fact. But I guess we all do. I realize we can never be too nice to people. They either look through it or take advantage of you. And either ain’t pretty. And in this cruel world, people aren’t the same as they used to be anymore. Everyone wants something for themselves. Can’t blame them though. It IS the survival of the fittest.

This is one fact I know by hard. Yet; to let it sink in seems harder than ever. I guess denial always lingers.

I let you have it. And you didn’t appreciate it. Well at least I feel so coz if you are appreciating it, it isn’t showing. I can’t tell you the hard, cold fact. I don’t know how to. That’s why I’m putting it here. It isn’t the same anymore. I can’t be the same to you anymore….What the heck. I can’t even explain it in words. Well, at least; I’ll know it.

So many things are going on. Some stuffs are known but many are kept. Put away where no one can or will find it. Not the best thing to do but there are reasons and reasons only the my heart will know.

it's one wrecked day & i don't care about U anymore

I’ve had enough.

You’re blaming me for other people’s mistakes. You’re pressuring me for answers I can’t give. What’s the point, really? You say you’re not this and that, well I’m not either and my heart’s not made of steel.
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You’re becoming selfish. Maybe I gave in too much. Now you’re taking everything for granted.

Seriously, you people have to start to realize that everything’s not solely about you only.
Who the hell do you think you are?

You’ve crossed way across my limits this time.

I’m emo. Leave me alone.

NO. Seriously. I mean it.

end the mystery. it's my turn now.

Listening to: Jordin Sparks-Next To You

Headache!! =( Just got home from Pyramid with the group of frens. Didn’t really get much sleep yesterday and I had a bad dream too. =/ Hmmm...blog about today later. Before i hit the sack later.

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I find it really hard liking someone. I’m not talking about friends. That one’s easy peasy unless you’re trying to be friends with some jerk.

Liking someone as in having feelings for the opposite sex. Being more than just friends. It could happen during the first few times you meet or realizing at one point in time and many other circumstances. I realized that you need not need to know the person exceptionally well to have feelings for him. Sometimes it just happens. And you can’t really explain why. And if you’re lucky enough, it’s HIM and if you’re not, move on. Anyways, it IS without doubt; hard, TIRING more likely.

To not be distracted, to notice less yet keep you around, to try to ignore the mixed signals, to not be affected, to be less involved, to prevent myself from finding out while staying in there partly hoping something will happen and to hold back if nothing happens and to be ready if anything does happen.

And i'm not even talking about love yet.

It’s probably too quick to make assumptions.

But, I AM a girl. Sue me.
Disappointment will probably meet me at the end of the line.

Will this time be any different?
But, I am hooked. So this time, I’m gonna try to make it work.

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“Maybe we're friends

Maybe we're more

Maybe it's just my imagination

But I see you stare just a little too long

And it makes me start to wonder

So baby call me crazy

But I think you feel it too

Maybe I, Maybe I

Just got to get next to you

Whatcha got to say? Whatcha got to do?

How ya get the one you want to want to get next to you?...”

i hate uncertainties.

annnoooyyyiinnggggggg!

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Lacking on my dosage of sleep.

Can't sleep tho & i'm getting cranky.

Better try to enter la la land soon~

sweet misery. life is about the choices you make.

Good morning Wednesday!

No class today! Thank God. Class was from 8 to 7.30pm yesterday. Hectic & so tiring! Bangsar/Pavillion this Sat! Bangsar’s got some pretty boutiques like Oopsidaisies & Mooie…Gotta check them out!

Went for my first Moral class yesterday. So packed I tell you. No point to go at all. And, I’m thinking to just skip every single Moral class. The teacher won’t even realize and that would be like so cool. XD

We got this Moral Community Project going on. Arghh…So ma fan k. Thanks to Dad for helping out tho. =) Never thought that planning a charity at an orphanage would be that hard. We’re going to have this lunch party at Compassion Home for Children. We have to like plan what to do, what food to serve, gifts, bla bla bla. Sounds easy but to handle it is tough =/ Probably going there next Wed coz there’s this other grp going there too so we wanna beat them to it. =D This weekend is gonna be busy, busy, busy!

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It's decided. I’m going my own way from now on. This game isn’t about winning or losing. It’s about letting go coz you can’t have everything. Some things are just meant not to happen and you just can’t have everything.

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Gonna take an uber long bathe!
Lotsa love!

too close to comfort

Aghhh! I’m seriously so SHORT of time! Why can’t there be like 405298 hours a day?? Ok. Don’t answer that. Not like I’ve got a gazillion things to do but just that I keep feeling that time passes like nuts and I barely did nuts. =( Seriously bad time planning after the hols. Gotta fix that~

Watched ‘What a Girl Wants’, ‘RV’ and ‘Just My Luck” recently. ‘What A Girl Wants’ is kinda old but it really rocks. Well, I like it. And, Oliver James is hot hot. Not popular though. Teared for some parts too-don't really noe why. =/

Last weekend was kinda spring cleaning weekend. CNY’s coming anyways. Well, we cleaned up my whole room & other places around the house. My room’s so clean now! *big grin* HAPPPPIEEE MEE!

Was at Bangsar again on Sunday. Had dinner at Marco’s Pizza coz we had some coupons with really good deals. Didn’t try their pizza but their foods suck! Bleh!

Bangsar’s my new hang out place! Got sick of shopping malls nowadays and I’ve got nothing much to buy these days anyways so Bangsar it is. Find it relaxing, very laid-back sort of thing. And there are still little shops around if I wanna get something. =D Gonna get the bestie there too!!!

Bestie told me about this post on XiaXue’s blog. It’s the remake of Snow White~! Hahaha…Hilarious I tell you. Go read!

Meet Kate Nash:Made of Bricks. She's got some nice songs like Mouthwash and Foundations.

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It’s those times when you’re so clouded with something where you lose people close around you. You might not lose the person him/herself, but maybe their trust or anything else. This is one of the times. Seriously, to me half the stuffs you say are just plain bullshit and the others don’t really matter very much either. I have now come to see that people ARE selfish and you really CAN'T TRUST anyone. You say it’s for me but its all lies. There’s always sth else for yourself in it. Don’t USE me ok. Things have changed and I can’t bring myself to trust you very much or rather at all anymore. Blame yourself.

Can’t you see I’m pretending? I don’t really like you anymore! But i guess you again are too clouded to realize.

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Class is realllllyyy LONG again tomorrow. 8am to 7.30pm! =(

Hurrying to finish this post. So behind in time again!

Bye yall!

it's a feel good day

“If you just realize,

What I just realized,

That we'd be perfect for each other,

And we'll never find another…”

So sweet :)

Class was till 11 today. New lecturer. She’s strict but really good in what she does. The class is getting bigger and it sucks that it’s kinda cram at times =/ Dad came pretty late so stayed back to makan and chill and catch up with the guys. Really nice of all of them to delay their appointment with ‘dota’ at AC to stay back with me for about 2 hrs. Been watching “My Lucky Star”; a Taiwan drama. Highly recommended! One of the many Taiwan dramas actually worth watching.

Probably to Pavillion tomorrow. Gotta check out stuffies that the bestie wants to buy. Been ages since I saw her anyways.

-I’m really afraid that time will pass too fast before anything is done.
I’m still wishing……

It’s a bright bright sun shiny day

I’m aliveee~!!!

Mon & Tues were such a blurr for me. Been really sick since Sunday. Thank god I’m much much better now. Was too tired these few days to get my ass out of the couch/bed to go online. Most of the time it was sleep/tv/sleep/eat/forgot/sleeppppp.... I remember that I puked 6 times on Monday night and obviously didn’t get much sleep. =S Seriously torturous! Worse off college started on Monday itself and more classes on Tues -__- Skipped most of the classes on Tues if not I would be dead by now.

Hmm…college started on 7th Jan.....*blank* as usual lah. Nothing great. The class is bigger now; yet lacks eye candy once again. =.= College isn’t as fun anymore. =( Missed moral studies on Tues tho but heard it was fun coz the teacher was talking about sex and all. What a waste…XD

Class again 2moro~
CNY’s coming! YAY! ~angpowwwwww!!
To the bestie::~Work hard! You can do it! ~muax

&&xoxo

on a lazy sunday afternoon,

i'm painting my nails red. (haha..random)

<3

NOOOOOOO~!!!! College is starting tomorrow. *sob*sob*sob* =( Which means no more couch potato-ing all day /sleeping more than 12 hrs a day /vacations / shoppings and everything else lar while the bestie is holidayin for another 2 months! -__- Plus, I'm sick with a sore throat and all. Sucks to be sick on the first day of coll.

Was playing my PS2 earlier. Played this racing game that my cousin bought. Think it's called "Pro Street" or sth like that. I damn good at it now. Bet I can beat anyone now! XDD

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Oh! HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY, Manpreet~!!!
All the best on ur special day!

&&xoxo

i'm afraid to smile for too long.

Ola!

Stuck in my room :( The aircond people are fixing stuffs around the house so to avoid more congestion, I’m staying in my room with Fibi till they’re done.

Was at the gym this morning. Jacuzi-ed too! :) Been awhile since I was there. =/

Got back at 1 plus for lunch. While waiting for dad to get my chicken rice which took forever.....

Got home and since then, I’ve been in my room. Took the pics of the stuffs I got from S’pore!

I can have my very own collection! :)
Haha...Wherever i saw "little miss" shirts, i just bought them. And now I've got too many. Maybe I should give some away. And in total there are actually 33 of these shirts =D

<3

miniatures!!~luvs!

All these cost $40~

Been a happy girl these few days. One wish alreadly came true. XD My hols are alreadly longer! College is starting later; next Monday :D

And maybe I actually DID wish hard enough. *thank you god* People say you can’t be too choosy and I made a certain promise to myself so maybe I’ll just go for it ;)

one happy 'little miss sunshine'

~One day I shall buy this book and finish reading it ;)

Happy New Year 2008!!

It's a new year! 2008 yall~!

All our resolutions lined up yet we all know we probably would hardly achieve any. Looking back at last year, changes there are, new experiences, different moments i cherish, hardships that i had to go through, just so many things that happened that made the year something to remember and a bittersweet journey for all of us. Yea, there are parts that I would like to change but things do happen for a reason. And, i hope it's for the good ones.

Let's hope this year would be much better or at least as good as the one before!

Fibi~! Adorable...missed ya~

Got home on the 31st at 7.30pm. Home, change and out to countdown. Countdown was at Sky Bar with the long 'forgotten' friends. Great view. Better company for the night. And, great that I don't have to cram in the street parties. Fireworks as usual. Isn't it the same every year? :)

College is starting soon. *sobs* I had a pretty good 3 weeks. Wished the hols were longer though. No doubt one of my busiest holidays :) The cuzzie is starting school tomorrow. No doubt she alreadly hating it now ;) Enjoyed the time i spent with ya in S'pore! Missing ya alreadly. p/s: don't waste tissue & change ur studs!! ;) &&&& get ur 6 A's and off we go to Aussie togeta~!

See ya during CNY!

Went to Pavillion earlier for lunch with fam friends. Then shopping abit wid Mellie. Saw this book.

hmm...interesting...
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Anyways, I'm currently reading this book-"A Child Called 'It' " by Dave Pelzer. A really sad story. It's a true story too about the abuse of a boy by his mother. One book where I'm hooked coz in 2 days i'm at page 137. =) And mind you I hardly ever read. ;)

Was reading "Our Little Secret" in S'pore but didn't get past the first few pages. Probably read it when the cuzzzie is done with it. This one's about a little boy being sexually abused by his father and it haunted him all the way to his 30s. Another true story. What's with the world??

Post the stuffies i bought later. Now to catch up on lost sleep for a week now.

Toodles!

~there's a sinking feeling in my heart this new year.